#StickWithIt

I started this journey with Proverbs 31 Ministries and 22,000 woman (it has grown since then to 24,000) at the beginning of August. I remember hearing Melissa say to get ready, we would be facing some battles since we had stepped out and stepped up to the challenge of saying “yes” to God. That was on a Sunday. On Wednesday, the devil busted down my front door and raided my house! Not literally, but he might as well have. I have fought a battle with Satan that I did not take authority over until yesterday, August 28, 2013. Why? Well, I’m like everyone else. If I ignore him, he will go away. At least that’s what we think most of the times. But the reality is he won’t leave. He just hides behind doors, under beds and in hardened hearts and depressed minds. He tortures your children and chases you around all day laughing while you are pulling out your hair wondering “Lord, why is this so hard right now? Where did this weight of the world come from all of sudden? Why do I feel so tired? How can I commit to this study when I barely have time to breathe?” Sound familiar? Well, it was a reality for me.

My husband has been suffering from chronic back pain for 4 years. He has been on disability for 3 years. He is 41 years old. No longer working at his job as a Social Worker at a local hospital, which he loved. No longer working in the yard, plowing gardens, raking leaves, weed eating and “piddling” as he likes to call it. This young man, married with two beautiful girls, worship leader and piano player is no longer functioning like a normal man his age. Yet everyone around him, including his wife (me) has expected him to carry on at times. It’s been a while and not much is getting better. Actually, if anything, it’s getting worse. He wants to move closer to his aging parents for fear he will end up in a wheelchair and need help from his family. But his aging parents are still aging with health issues of their own. His siblings are scattered. Me and our girls are what he has. I’m not sure anymore if he really wants that either. You see, chronic pain, it does a number on you. It plays tricks on you. Tricks of Satan. He makes you question everything you have and everything you are. So when I started this bible study, this was the perfect opportunity for Satan to kill two birds with one stone. John 10:10 says that Satan comes to kill, steal and to destroy but Jesus came to give us life and give it more abundantly. Satan wants to kill. He is a blood-seeker. He’s after mine right now. I have purposed in my heart to make heaven my home and serve God as long as there is breath in my body. I am praying and claiming healing for my husband. I am putting God first in my life, for He has promised to move mountains for me if I just put Him first in my life. Satan is mad at me!!! But guess what, girls? I’m going to #StickWithIt!!

My husband says husband says he loves me. I doubt it because of actions and words that are hurtful and I’m not placed before others at times. But I took my vows seriously and I am praying deliverance. My marriage is very important to me. I will do whatever it takes to make it work. I’m going to #StickWithIt!!!

My home is beautiful. God has blessed us. Even though there are days I am very tired and I could throw my hands in the air and give up and say I don’t care. This is the life God gave ME! I’m going to do what He has called me to do as a wife and mother. I am going to praise my way through the piles of laundry and dirty dishes. I will claim His promises while mopping the floors and cleaning the toilets. I am a registered nurse and I work 40 plus hours a week. I leave I’m going to #StickWithIt.

This OBS (Online Bible Study) with Proverbs 31 Ministries has been a life saver for me. I thank Him every day for this study. I have drawn closer to God the past few weeks and have become a stronger Christian woman for it. I am focused. My eyes are fixed on God. HE is my number one. HE is everything to me. He is the air I breathe. When all Hell breaks loose and the world is falling down around me, He shelters me under the shadow of His wings and keeps me safe. He has NEVER let me down. He has ALWAYS answered my prayers. Even when I didn’t like the answer, I still got one!! I don’t deserve Him. He is the love of my life and I finally realize NO ONE can love me like He does. He is so worth it. I could have called it quits many times during this study with all the stress and interruptions and aggravations I have faced. But I said #YesToGod and I’m going to #StickWithIt!!

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About byhisgrace686

I am a wife, mommy, and a registered nurse who loves Jesus! I have been a Christian for 27 years and no, it has not always been easy. But God has been faithful and kept me all this time! I teach the young adult Sunday school class at my local church, the Kenova Church of God (associated with the church of God out of Cleveland, Tennessee). I am a scrapbooker by heart, and a Pinterest addict by default. I love to read (Lysa TerKeurst, Beth Moore, Max Lucado, Elizabeth George and Karen Kingsbury, to name a few). Studying God's Word is a passion and I just can't get enough of it! That's why I started this blog! I wanted to connect with more people, especially women, in these difficult days while we wait on the return of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. I am here to encourage, remind, and share what God has done for not only me, but others in my life! Please join me and lets be like Esther and be pleasing in God's sight and find HIS favor...for who knows, maybe He brought us together for "such a time as this!" Esther 4:14 View all posts by byhisgrace686

5 responses to “#StickWithIt

  • rportteus

    I do not know your situation, but I do know a bit about chronic pain. Hang in there! Your husband probably does still love you more than you know, but is fighting off the devils in his life too. God is with you! #Stickwithit! I am saying a prayer right now that God gives your family the peace and direction it needs and the healing power of His love!

  • Denise Sandy-Sanchez

    Thanks for your honesty! I hear you clearly and agree that the doubt, fear, and insecurity create gaps that we allow God or satan to fill. Our praises during trials may be difficult, but trusting in The Lord closes those gaps and fill them with His love, grace, and mercy. I am praying for you, your husband, and your family!

  • Trish Cordell

    Life can be messy and complicated, but for the women that say Yes to God, we know there is always a place to run and lay our weary heads and get the life rejuvenation we need. Thanks for sharing your heart and may God shower blessings down on you and your family!

    šŸ™‚ Trish (OBS small group leader)

  • linda

    “This is the life He gave me, I’m going to do what he has called me to do as a wife and mother.”
    I think the first objective, for me at least and as challenged by your words, is to recognize this truth. THIS IS THE LIFE HE GAVE ME.
    In other words, we don’t (can’t?) get in the wrong boat as some say. And even if it were possible to do so, This is the life he gave me (us).

    Like you, I am blessed with a wonderful husband, but our husbands aren’t meant to completely fulfill us as much as we want because they too have a unique design and bent that is used to mirror christ. It’s taken me 40 years of marriage to get this.

    Our desire is to be for our husband Genesis 3:16 , it’s not about me.

    And ultimately, our real husband is the Lord anyway, our “ISHI”. (Hosea 2:16, Hebrew for husband)

    Very inspiring post, thank you for sharing from your heart with words of encouragement to persevere.

  • linda

    funny, returned to finish reading some of the other blogs and just noticed we are right next to each other. šŸ™‚

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